I don't know what I am going to do next year or long term. Recently I have been thinking that it is my right to be on staff with Cru and that it is my right to get accepted this time. Part of me thinks that I am not going to get accepted. Back to this attitude that I have had though. As a student I was kind of anti-staff saying that God can use me where ever I go, but now that I am on staff it is almost opposite. I have had the idea that God can't use me anywhere else so I have not even thought about how God can use me.
Recently I have realized that and I have spent some time thinking about what I have been learning. I have been learning a lot about church and different churches. Part of me is interested in working at a church maybe with youth. I was thinking about a non-existent internship with my churches youth that I found out the other day the church was already thinking about having a part time intern. The church is also in search for an outreach pastor. I don't think I am qualified to do that full time but I do think I can start the ball rolling with some ideas and things I have learned this past year.
I have also thought about the idea of moving out to Colorado and just getting a small job maybe retail or something like that with the idea of getting involved in a church out there even to the point of working for a church. I think that it would be fun to see some more of the US and experience being out on my own. I feel like I can really push myself and my development and growth by being somewhere new where people don't know me and know how I work.
Another option is still working with Cru and with greeks but not at Tech. There might be an opportunity to go to UGA or UNC and work under guys that have been doing greek ministry for awhile.
Yet another option is to go home and get a real job and stay involved in the church but also have the opportunity to put all of the stuff about missional ministry to practice and lead by example in that way.
So many thoughts....still thinking through it.
